While part of me longed to be a muse because it seemed simpler, sexier, and less daunting, defined in my mind as she who inspires creation... Alas I think I'm more the seeker of inspiration, the hunter of things and people that stir up a desire to create, to connect, and especially to live.
Save a recent migraine (I've fortunately had only a small handful in my life), I've never been someone who wanted to exit this life early. Sure, I've thought it might be easier, more peaceful, more quiet and potentially more nothing when this life of mine is passed, I've never really wanted that...
But the desire to live and feel alive has driven me for most of my life. Intertwined is the desire to create and connect - with myself and others, and especially to some other, benevolent, ethereal, universal, ubiquitous source.
I suppose that is what spawned the songwriter in me. Not the other way around.
To clarify: My desire to be inspired and seeking inspiration so that I could feel more connected, more alive and more creative, is what spawned the songwriter in me.
For some reason tears keep coming up as I write this.
Maybe we all have some element of this. Maybe it's just part of the human condition and not unique to me or any other creative types. I don't know.
I read two quotes this morning, inspired by an interview I worked on yesterday. The interviewee paraphrased a Joseph Campbell quote about heroes. After some digging I came across another quote and then the Joseph Campbell quote as well. Here they are. Hope they move or inspire you in some way that is unique to you. Let me know how it goes.
"I sought my soul, but my soul I could not see, I sought my god, but my god eluded me; And then I sought my sisters and my brothers, and in them I found all three." ― Baba Amte
“...And where we had thought to find an abomination, we shall find a god; where we had thought to slay another, we shall slay ourselves; where we had thought to travel outward, we shall come to the center of our own existence; where we had thought to be alone, we shall be with all the world.”
― Joseph Campbell
